From whom you wonder. From myself. I have never before sat in front of a computer screen so blank, and for so long thinking about what to write. Sometimes I’m overflowing with ideas and other times I just know what I want to talk about. But not this time.
I’ve been trying to blog for the past 3 days but I don’t know whether I’m too lazy to think or what! And this is not like me, so I feel somewhat disconnected.
Even going to school doesn’t excite me anymore. Like classes aren’t that fun. Just those same old regular jokes and wishing for the teacher to be absent. And I absolutely don’t want any tests because studying is the last thing I want to do.
I don’t know whether I’m just extremely bored or having mood swings but I absolutely HATE this feeling!
So before you understand what this post is about you might want to take a quick look at this post first:
https://potterweasley.wordpress.com/2013/12/08/a-lie-to-myself/ -Don’t get lazy to click this link!
Anyway, now that you have read it (which you hopefully have), I would just like to tell you that it I believe it worked! I literally was ready to drop physics because I got a C in my first term and I was so very unhappy with it. But this time in my Half Yearly Examinations I did not only score well, but I scored the 2nd highest in my grade in Physics. This came off as a great surprise to me and I went sky high. I WAS ON TOP OF THE WORLD! Mainly because I was literally expecting a 60%. And FYI, I got 84% which is an A and 86% was the highest.
Not trying to show off here, just saying.
Now I don’t know whether it was this whole ‘Lying to myself’ thing that had just worked. It may or may not be. The truth could just be that I had suddenly woken up, and worked my ass off for this. And perhaps this whole ‘Lying to myself’ thing played a small part. It can also be that I’m just giving credit of my hardwork to some theory which I thought would work, and apparently I believe it did. I don’t know if all of it was just me
and my awesomeness or not. But I am just very happy.
If you want something very badly, truly from your heart, then the whole universe will make sure that you get it. ON TOP OF THE WORLD. PHYSICS FTW.
PS: Please understand that I’m not encouraging any one reading this to try this theory out because it may just be false. At the end of the day we need to understand that only hardwork pays off.
PPS: I give all the credits to Potter for introducing me to the whole ‘Lying to myself’ theory thing. I love you bro.
So, here’s the thing: We have our annual day coming up.
It’s basically this day where all the students put up this huge play, with songs, dances, the works and there’s this totally original script. Performing on the final day is always really incredible because the energy and enthusiasm in the air is contagious, but what’s even more incredible than that is the process of putting up our ‘big show’!
We have these crazy moments where people do stupid things and make the whole crew crack up, or times where nobody gets their dialogues right because of the uncontrollable fits of laughter, or even those time when our director (a senior teacher) loses her cool and yells at us, bringing us back to the serious dialogue delivery and all that jazz. Well, the point of it all is that we just work together, in sync, to do something for each other and in turn for ourselves. Obviously there are a few people who bring everybody down because of their disinterest and there are days where rehearsals seem like a total bore because naturally everyday is not a party. But when I look at the whole picture those few annoying days are worth bearing when I have the most amazing memories to compare them with.
Rehearsals aren’t exactly killing me but I’m surely going to be murdered because of the pressure of my upcoming exams, projects and homework! But, whatever people may say, practicing for this show is time well spent!
As for the ugly ties and awkward smiles..that’s for the crew to understand. A drama too difficult to explain!
During a school field trip to a beautiful bird sanctuary.
All original photography.
Dear Teachers, do you have a soul? Well I doubt it.
Okay so I love going to school. I don’t know if that sounds weird but I guess I just love meeting my friends and seeing everybody, catching on with the latest gossip, preparing for various house events, running around the corridors, begging the teachers for a free period and all of that. I absolutely love it.
But honestly I think that just being in the ninth grade has
changed modified my perspective.
I mean I still love going to school but I’m finding it very difficult to cope up with my studies. And then it gets very difficult to have an exciting social life.
It feels as though every day in school the teachers are trying to give off this uncomfortable vibe (and I have never felt like this before so the feeling is slightly
New to me) and indirectly always seem to be saying:
‘I don’t care if you have plans for tonight, just keep studying.’
‘Not enough homework? Well, let’s change that.’
‘You have a project in 2 subjects due for tomorrow and 2 major assessments along with that. Well, I’m sure you can handle a 5 page easy.’
‘You’re just scaring yourself, it’s not very difficult.’
…and the list just goes on.
I understand that they want us to excel but sometime it gets too stressful.
I wouldn’t be surprised if I found a white hair.
So the real reason I’m really mad is because we are getting a 5 day holiday starting on 30th October and this holiday itself comprises of a Saturday and a Sunday. Looking at this 5 day break all the teachers have decided to give us something to do over the holidays. And that’s the sucky part really.
None of the teachers realise that we have the same amount, if not more work already being bombarded upon us by another subject teacher. I mean they’re just 5 days and they have even given to us so that we can rest for a while. I tried negotiating and explaining for the same but they just didn’t seem to listen. They thought that I was making up some bullshit in order to reduce the work load but that was not true.
So basically I have 6 projects to complete, along with that I need to catch up on a bit of stuff I missed out during schooldays and other homework as well. Plus the teachers have already told us the dates for a few assessments and I’m going to have to revise for all of that as well.
Currently all I want is to have the weight lifted off my shoulders. I don’t like being under so much stress. No one does I guess. And that’s what makes everything so difficult.
P.S: If any teacher has stumbled up on this post I don’t mean to hurt your sentiments or make it sound like you guys are horrible. I don’t even want to make the profession sound like I have. I’m sorry if I have done so.
I truly love and respect my teachers.
My Birthday’s going to be here in 2 days. 23rd of October.
I was really excited a month ago for my birthday, but my excitement was kind of washed away when I realized there is going to be a 5 day school trip for all the geography and EVM students and we will be leaving early in the morning ON MY FREAKKIN BIRTHDAY!
Really, not the best way to celebrate ones birthday.
And not all are my friends are going to be with me since a lot of them haven’t chosen Geography or EVM for their IGCSE.
So basically I’ll most likely have to get up at 5.30am on my birthday, quickly get ready, have my parents drop me off at the airport, meet my friends (which are few in number cause majority of the students are 10th graders and out of the few 9th graders most of my close friends are missing), and spend a few hours in the flight, and ‘enjoy’ the hectic day planned ahead.
‘Its going to be SO much fun’- *Sarcastic voice*
For now I don’t really care. Whatever happens, happens. I’ll just have to deal with it.
P.S: Initially the trip wasn’t actually planned on the date of my birthday but had later been postponed due to bad weather at the destination.
I never saw this coming.
So one of the subjects I chose for my IGCSE is History. I absolutely love the subject unlike others who think it’s a waste of time! But sometimes I too wonder whether taking up History as a subject was necessary. I mean I got an option of so many other wonderful subjects, and dropping history would be so easy.
But my main question is not whether it was a good option to take history, but in fact why we learn that subject. I mean doesn’t everybody just always wonder why we learn about the past. Why not just move on with our lives. How is the learning/knowing about the past going to make a difference in our lives?
And yet schools and universities look upon that subject with great interest. Is it because they want to haunt us with the past and increase our burden? That could be a suitable explanation but I am still not convinced.
So… I did some research (Don’t judge me! I can be very geeky). This is what I found:
“History should be studied for several reasons. First off, history helps us to understand other cultures. With this knowledge of history you can be able to analyze other cultures. Another reason to study history is because it helps us to understand change. It is said that history repeats itself; studying history will teach you how to grasp and overcome change.Lastly, an understanding history is essential for good citizenship.”
If you would like to know more in depth of the reason we study history, visit: http://www.historians.org/pubs/free/WhyStudyHistory.htm
I hope you enjoyed todays lesson 😉
Gaaaahhhhh, I sound like a boring teacher.
P.S: I genuinely hope this may have inclined you to the subject a bit more, or may have at least given you an incentive to study history for your next test;)